GM！！！

Brothers, today I took a little break again, just woke up.

Don't overthink it, it's not because I stayed out too late and can't get up.
I just feel that staring at the computer for 15 hours a day, and still not earning 100 bucks, what's the point of all my hard work?

I know not all efforts are rewarded,
but I really want to discuss with my brothers whether the market is bad or if it's my problem?
Is my effort wrong or am I not suited for this line of work?

I've heard a saying: even the best projects have people losing money, and even the worst environments have people making money.
Once I was young and reckless, I thought that no matter how bad the environment is, I wouldn't be a fool; as long as I work hard, I can definitely make money.

Looking back now, yesterday I greeted my brothers on the plane, and they all said there's no work. Not even small jobs. I only earned 20 US dollars yesterday, still relying on Big Brother's charity. Without these 20 dollars, I wouldn't be able to eat today.

Talking about a bad environment, there are still people making money around me, but I feel I am not much worse than them. Why can't I make money?
Talking about projects, well, now I have no motivation to do anything. After doing it for a while, I just want to rest, and I have no idea what to do or where to start.

I just can't figure it out now. Nothing makes money, and even the odd jobs I look down on can give me a little surprise. Am I getting old?